The Identity Crisis
The constant pull this whole journal is named after
It's the middle of the year. That's usually when the identity crisis starts kicking in again.
I just came off ShipKaro, Wajahat Karim's weekend cohort, and it was genuinely amazing. I went in mostly to see the culture around it. The interest behind actually building something, and how Wajahat is leading that change here.
Because for a long time in Pakistan, the path has been one thing. You get tired of your job, you go freelance, then you open an agency, then maybe you build a product. And I'll own my part in this. I've pushed that exact path to a lot of people.
I still think it's the right one if you're going to launch a B2B or SaaS product. You need those experiences to compound. Freelancing teaches you clients. An agency teaches you operations. By the time you sit down to build something, you actually know what you're doing. That flow is real.
But there's another path I kept walking past. Indie hacking. Saad Pasta first put it in front of me, and now Wajahat is pushing it too.
Indie hacking, the way I understand it, is building micro-SaaS. Small products that solve one use case really well, set you apart, and yes, you can put a price on them and earn from them. I'm not an expert. I'm not going to pretend I am. But it cracked something open. It's a perfectly good alternate path, especially if you're a developer, or technical enough to understand how software actually works underneath.
And with the AI tools we have now, you can genuinely build an app that solves a real problem well. Which is exactly what I'm doing through the cohort. I'm building a to-do app for myself. No plans to monetize it. It's the same capture-first thing I've written about before. I'm building it because I want it to exist.
The bigger thing sitting on my mind is my teaching. I think it's about to change.
The people who usually show up in my server, The Wandering Pro, are mostly at the stage where they don't even have the skill set to land a job yet. So I can't really reach them with this idea, not right now. The long-term goal is the people one layer up. The ones who already have a career, already have a job. For them, freelancing isn't the only answer anymore. Remote work isn't the only answer. You can build your own app, your own small product, your own thing. That's where I think this is going, with AI quietly lowering the floor.
I don't want to be the guy saying it's easy. It's still hard. But AI has made it accessible enough to at least get in the door. And building cool shit is what mattered all along.
Which is where the actual crisis shows up.
I was talking to my wife yesterday and I asked myself out loud, what do I actually love? Because my plate is already full, and somehow I still joined a cohort and started building a mobile app. There is no version of my schedule where this fits. I know I can't keep it up for long.
But when I line up my past, my present, and whatever the future ends up being, the answer is the same every time. What I love is building stuff. Some of it works, some of it flops, some of it dies quietly. Who cares.
Here's the part that stings a little. Almost everything I've built has been on the services side.
In the last 3 years alone I've stood up more than 4 agency fronts for partners across the world. Australia, the UK, Nepal, the US. Because I know how to put together a landing page that converts. I know how to set up the operations to run a services business. I know how to coach someone through getting clients, making sales, writing proposals. That's paid my bills, and it's the network I've been quietly building, because I never had a referral network so I went and made my own. I took people who were sitting around and pushed them into starting their own services businesses.
So the question I can't shake is simple. Why can't I do the same thing for products? For apps?
This is the identity crisis talking, and I'm just logging the rambling.
The Wandering Pro was always meant to log the bigger journey. I started a career. Got good at it. Escaped it. Went into freelancing. Got good at that too, ended up one of the better product manager freelancers on Upwork out of Pakistan, even ended up working at Upwork itself. Which is a badge of honor I should probably wear more openly instead of tucking it behind me. Then I left freelancing and started the business. And for the team size we're at and the margins we're running, we're doing alright. First year was decent. The second is shaping up to be better.
I told Wajahat something over chat. One thing I realized after starting the business is that I have almost no local presence. Not the way he does. I haven't done talks. I haven't done any speaker stuff. That's probably the biggest gap right now, and it's going on the roadmap.
And I told him why, sort of. I'm a product manager by trade, and we are terrible at being proud of what we do. Imposter syndrome is our resting state. We're such generalists that we never feel good enough at any single thing. That has to change. I need to start saying the things I've actually learned out loud.
Because here's what I keep getting wrong. When I look at the people in Wajahat's cohort, or the people in my own community, I set the bar way too high for myself. For my personal life, for the business. And the ground reality, the thing literally written on The Wandering Pro about page, is that most people are just trying to pay their bills. Most people don't want $10,000/month. They want sustainable, scalable income, earned in a way they're actually proud of. Not grinding their soul down at a job they can't stand. That's it. That's what most people want.
Freelancing can be that answer for a lot of them. Starting a business can be that answer for a lot of them. And now I think indie hacking and product building can be that answer too.
And this isn't just my eyes opening because of one cohort. When the year started, I launched Wander Labs inside the community. Same idea underneath. The Wandering Pro is me logging my own career. Good at the job, then good at freelancing, then good at business. I'm still in the middle of getting good at business, I won't pretend I've arrived. But the start is solid.
Eventually I want to get to the product side properly. And I have this habit of setting lofty goals. Mine has been, I'll only build a product when I've got $100,000 sitting in a bank account I can comfortably bootstrap with. Watching Wajahat, I think that rule might just be a me thing. I like doing things at a certain standard, sitting here in Pakistan. That's my baggage, not anyone else's.
Other people don't carry that goal. They don't need to aim that high. They don't need to shoot for whatever I'm shooting for. So maybe my job is to help them reach the goals they actually have, the ones that aren't sky-high. And that's completely fine, because I've done enough by now to have something worth handing over.
The biggest thing the cohort knocked loose was this. I used to believe I had to be ultra, mega successful in Pakistan before I had any right to teach. That the proof had to be enormous. Turns out that's mostly vanity. What actually matters is much simpler. Do you know your shit. And do you have some proof that you know it. I have plenty of proof. The Upwork profile, the monthly retainers I've sold for up to $10,000/month, the actual work. The capability is here. What's left is opportunities, and those come and go. That's just how it works.
So this entry on the Rift is the identity crisis one. That's the name. And really, the whole blog is named after exactly this. The Rift is the constant pull inside me between building things, helping people, running a business, running a publication, and writing about all of it at once. That's the rift I'm always juggling.
I think this is the defining piece for it. The one that finally explains the name.
Still figuring out which side of the rift is supposed to win on any given day. Probably all of them. Probably none of them. Ask me again at the end of the year.
With or without my help – I wish you the best.








